Wednesday, March 04, 2026

The Discipline of Self-Control

 

Introduction

The young man arrived home and knew he needed something to calm his nerves. His anxiety would often get the better of him after a hard day of work. The work itself was not the source of his anxiety. He loved working with his patients. He was a personal support worker; a kind of front line worker at the hospital. He was the one who was up close and personal with the patients. He would be the one to make their beds and see that they were cleaned, fed and clothed. Normally, he would be assigned the care of 8 patients for a shift. Since the Covid pandemic everything changed. Now every day was a blur of activity. Unreasonable demands and excessive workloads were put on everyone on the ward. The increased and unrelenting pressure caused many of the staff to quit. Staff turnover meant that the hospital was constantly hiring new staff in need of training and orientation.  Mistakes were made due to the inexperience of the newer ones and the pressure that everyone felt. Tempers grew short.  Supervisors and staff alike would snap at one another. The joy that was normally part of his experience evaporated under the pressure of the immense load of work expected from everyone these days. And so Pete would stop by the cannabis store (it was now legal to smoke marijuana in Canada) to buy marijuana. It was the only way he knew how to relax after an anxiety filled day.

Pete was a Christian. He became a believer while attending a church about 3 years ago. He even attended baptism classes. How well he remembered the day that he went under the water to demonstrate to his world not only of his newfound love for Jesus Christ but of his resolve to deny himself, pick up his cross and follow his Lord and Saviour.[1]

That was 3 years ago. Some things changed in his life almost immediately. No more wild parties where he would get drunk and be led into all kinds of out-of-control excesses. He had a purpose in life now. Life was not meaningless.  For a while he had a God-given voracious appetite for the Bible. He read the Bible daily at work and at home. He collected and read books about the Bible. It was a life-changing leap forward for him. He developed new relationships in the church he attended and would soon occasionally even be asked to teach a Bible class. His pastor recognized an ability in Pete that need to be encouraged and honed. His marijuana habit remained a secret.

Pete’s life was rather disorganized, and he knew it. Since he had been born again, there were some things in life that he found very difficult. Developing new habits was always a challenge. His mother died while he was quite young. During Pete’s formative years his father was busy making ends meet with two jobs. He was rarely home before dark. As a result there was little to no structure to Pete’s younger years. He grew up without much guidance and even less discipline. He was left to figure out life on his own.

Although he was a smart lad, (that’s what the teachers and his aptitude tests would tell him) he lacked ambition. Homework was often ignored. For awhile he got by on simply remembering what he had heard or read. Half-way through high school, he quit his education out of boredom and to escape the bullying in his all-boys class. It was easy to get a job in those days.

The Problem
Years later as a believer he would say that he regretted the decision to drop out of high school because God had given him a thirst for learning. Still, even now he wished he could have that first glow of enthusiasm, that passion that drove him to study the Bible and be involved in church life when he became a Christian. The same passivity and indifference that led him to quit his schooling was now creeping back into his daily life. It was becoming a problem. He would never say that he regretted his decision to follow Jesus Christ. He only wished that the surge of motivation that fueled his faith in the early days of his experience with Christ would have lasted. Why was life now mostly drudgery and routine?
Pete was now learning that the walk of faith was not going to be like riding the crest of a wave. Pete thought that the Holy Spirit would continue to fire him up with energy.  What was it, Pete wondered? Some Christians had an immediate overnight transformation. As a result they would drop all their bad habits easily. He had a friend who was once seriously addicted to both gambling and alcohol. When that friend became a believer he was miraculously freed from the desire for both drinking and gambling.  Why could that not have happened to him, he wondered? Would this craving for the relief that marijuana gave him not leave? Other Christians would tell him to just pray harder or to simply read the Bible.

Of course it wasn’t just the addiction that bothered him. He was beginning to eat excessively. He would even buy the occasional case of beer and drink more than he should. At home he was sloppy and would often wait until he had no clean clothes before doing the laundry. Pete never felt like he was actively living life. He was letting life happen. In other words, he was living life passively. He had no real goals. He had no ambitions. He knew he was saved, and that was his hope, and he was often made aware that he needed to get serious again about his relationship to the Lord. But why was he always slipping back into mediocrity whenever he tried to improve his laissez-faire lifestyle? What was the problem?

Pete had lost sight of the fact that there was a necessary maturing process in the believer’s life that was not just automatic. There are components to the Christian life for which Christians are responsible. There comes a time in an infant’s life where it needs to feed itself. In the human life there are stages of growth. So too in the Christian’s life. In 2 Peter 1:3 it almost seems like it happens automatically because it says that “…His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence[2]. But then in verse 5 the inspired writer tells us that we must, with all diligence add to our faith various qualities.

For this very reason, make every effort to supplement your faith with virtue, and virtue with knowledge, and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with steadfastness, and steadfastness with godliness, and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love. For if these qualities are yours and are increasing, they keep you from being ineffective or unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.[3]

If these qualities are added to our lives, they keep you from being ineffective or unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. There it was. Self-control was in the middle of that list!

As this realization dawned on Pete, that he had not spent any time or energy working on the development of these virtues, he knew he had to repent. The sin of sloth had wreaked havoc in his life. He had not lifted a finger to pursue or develop any of these virtues in his ongoing walk with God.

Therefore he decided now to commit himself seriously to the growth process. This was not a trivial decision. Nor was it a simple confession of a trivial sin. This was a seminal moment in his life, and he recognized that this moment of decision was absolutely critical if he was ever going to grow into a mature Christian.

After spending an intense time with the Lord in prayer, repenting and meditating on God’s word,  He would start by working on  self-control. This virtue was central to all of the others. If he had no self-control, then how was he going to be consistent with anything else? He realized that self-control (or self-discipline) had been missing all of his life. All those years of living life by his own rules as a teenager had taken its toll. It was time to find a remedy. The first thing he needed to do was to find an accountability partner. He did not want this to be a false start. He had tried a few times before, but his attempts always fizzled out. Then he decided to spend much of his free time in study. He needed to understand how it happens that Christians grow stronger, more mature and more consistent.

Definition of self-control

First, Pete did a study and made note of every biblical passage where self-control was mentioned.
Here is a list of some of them.

A man without self-control is like a city broken into and left without walls. (Proverbs 25:28)

…women should adorn themselves in respectable apparel, with modesty and self-control, not with braided hair and gold or pearls or costly attire… (1 Timothy 2:9)

Therefore an overseer must be above reproach, the husband of one wife, sober-minded, self-controlled, respectable, hospitable, able to teach… (1 Timothy 3:2)

…for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control. (2 Timothy 1:7)
Likewise, urge the younger men to be self-controlled. (Titus 2:6)

The end of all things is at hand; therefore be self-controlled and sober-minded for the sake of your prayers. (1 Peter 4:7)

For this very reason, make every effort to supplement your faith with virtue, and virtue with knowledge, and knowledge with self-control… (2 Peter 1:5-6)

He looked at the synonyms of self-control, like temperance, sobriety and self-discipline. He noted that in each context where the concept appeared, self-control was either an ability to do something good that a person does not naturally want to do or it is also the ability to keep from doing something detrimental to spiritual health but that a person naturally desires to do. One does not need to exercise restraint from actions that are undesirable.  

Here are a couple of simple examples. It is natural to want to eat ice cream on a hot day. But if obesity was a problem, one would have to exercise restraint (or self-control). Pete could see that restraining desires that moved him in the wrong direction was a problem for him. How would he restrain himself from doing what HE wanted to do, rather than doing what the Lord desired for him? Here was another simple example. Most people do not like to get up early to spend some quiet time with the Lord. Self-control is needed in order to get up, whether I feel like it or not. So here we have self-control working in the opposite direction. Doing good things that require me to do something I do not really want to do.

So let’s repeat this: self-control is the skill or ability to consistently do some things that I don’t naturally like to do; things that I would not do if Christ was not in my life. It is also the ability to consistently restrain myself from doing some things that are detrimental to my spiritual (or physical) health that I naturally (apart from Christ) like to do.

Pete recognized that his pattern had been to live by his feelings. Outside of his 9-5 job, if he didn’t feel like doing something, he didn’t do it. If he felt like doing something, he did it. He was beginning to see now that this was no way to live if he was going to grow in his relationship to Christ and become a mature Christian.

Self-control – Spiritual or non-spiritual?
The next question that occurred to him: how did the fruit of the Spirit differ from the natural abilities and skills that humans have before becoming followers of Christ. In Galatians he read,

22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. [4]  

Also in the passage that was already mentioned at the beginning of the article in 2 Peter 1, self-control is something that is added into the Christian’s life as he or she grows.

“So,” he thought to himself, “if self-control is a part of the fruit of the Spirit, how come people who do not have the Holy Spirit in their lives seem to have more self-control than I do in many areas of their lives?”

He enjoyed watching sports programs on TV and was often astonished at how healthy and disciplined some of these athletes were. One athlete had written an autobiography and in it, he read that the athlete would get up at 4 A.M. every morning, run ten miles before breakfast, then do weight training for four hours under the directions of a coach. The athlete’s diet was even more rigorous.  Obviously self-control was not only something that happened to Christ-followers. This would require more thought. As he mused on this problem it suddenly struck him. Didn’t the Apostle Paul himself used the athlete as a metaphor in the Bible? Immediately he turned in his Bible to 1 Cor 9.

24 Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one receives the prize? So run that you may obtain it. 25 Every athlete exercises self-control in all things. They do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we an imperishable. 26 So I do not run aimlessly; I do not box as one beating the air. 27 But I discipline my body and keep it under control, lest after preaching to others I myself should be disqualified. [5]

“Hmmm,” Pete thought to himself. “Running aimlessly. That’s what I have been doing for most of my life.”

Paul was familiar with the stringent and difficult training to which Olympic athletes would subject themselves. He had also read somewhere that gladiators in 1st century Rome were known as “barley men” because they would restrict themselves to eating grains and mostly vegetables. That took a lot of self-control.

Therefore it wasn’t just exercising the body but it was also a strict diet! Of course, Paul was not trying to advocate a diet or a physical  exercise routine. He was using the self discipline that was necessary for the athlete to achieve those goals as an example for the Christian so that he would engage his or her self-control in the area of spiritual disciplines – the kind of action necessary to grow spiritually and to become all that we were meant to be as ambassadors for Christ. And certainly spiritual growth must happen if we are to evidence the fruit of the Spirit.

Is there a clue in that same paragraph to help us understand the difference between the self-control and discipline of an non-believing athlete and a believer in Christ? Yes there is. Paul says, “They do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we an imperishable.” [6]

The motive for doing what the Christian does makes all the difference. It has everything to do with the question of why we do it. In Bible times athletes would compete for a wreath, a laurel crown and the prestige that comes with it. In our day athletes compete in order to win a ribbon,  a medal or maybe even a monetary prize and of course they too would compete for the recognition and the prestige.

The Christian is not competing with other Christians. He is competing with himself to improve his service and his devotion to the Lord. He is aiming at a reward that waits for him in heaven. Pete briefly wondered about the thought of reward. How does the thought of reward not appeal to the tendency towards selfishness in all of us? Pete decided to study that topic some other time. For now it was enough to know that he was at war with the forces within his own heart that conspire to sabotage him and his goals. He was so determined to improve his ability to discipline himself because it seemed central to everything else.

While Pete was thinking about the differences between the self-control of a non-believer and the self-control that the Holy Spirit brings to the believer’s life, he did some research. He discovered that neuroscientists had already discovered that there is a part of the brain that is mostly responsible for characteristics like decision-making, determination, resilience, and tenacity. These are all qualities that make up self-control. He learned that those parts of the brain are much larger in athletes, scholars and others who chose career paths or hobbies that required a lot of self-discipline.  In a certain sense, he could see then that self-control can behave very much like a muscle that is strengthened by reason of use. In his own case, he could see that his brain was greatly underutilized and therefore his will to be consistent had been very weak. Peter was wise. He did not blame an under-developed section of the brain for his lack of discipline. He knew that he was responsible.

This new information led Pete to yet another train of thought. He had recognized early in life that people are generally motivated (or demotivated) by pleasure and pain. He remembered the fable  of that proverbial donkey that would either be motivated by the carrot that was held in front of his snout, forever out of reach or it was motivated by the stick that the donkey’s owner would use if the carrot was not enough to move it forward.

In the human realm and in the world of reality, the prospect of pain will often divert us from moving towards our goal, and the prospect of pleasure would have the opposite effect. The desire for pleasure would move us towards the goal.

Wouldn’t that hinder us from moving towards our goal if our goal involved difficulty, resistance and pain? It certainly would if there was only pain and resistance and no hope of reward and the joy of achievement.

Pete remembered a passage that spoke precisely about this. Once again the author uses the rigor of an athlete to illustrate the journey of faith before us. It was speaking of Jesus and what motivated him.

Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.[7]

“Why must this journey be endured,” Pete asked himself? Endurance reminded him more of a marathon. Marathons are painful. They must be endured. But where is the joy in endurance? Why subject himself to the pain?  The verse just quoted above informs us.

Jesus had his eyes on something beyond the pain and the shame of the cross. What He had his eyes fixed on was going to be worth all the suffering and shame that a cruel Roman crucifixion would cause Him. Pete saw that this is what lies at the heart of spiritual self-control. The thought of eternal reward and joy together with the example of Jesus at the cross.

Jesus could have whispered a prayer and legions of angels would have come to rescue Him. Rescue was a breath of a prayer away. It would have been so easy. It must have been a powerful temptation for Him. But Jesus did not exercise that option. He chose instead to allow the mockery, the scourging with the whip, the humiliation by the Roman soldiers. He remained nailed to the cross, shamefully exposed to the multitude watching Him die by crucifixion, the kind of execution reserved for the lowest class of criminals in their society. Worst of all was the three hours of darkness that ended with his agonizing cry “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” It is not difficult to imagine that it was during those dark hours that the sin of the world was laid upon his shoulders. To experience the separation of the Father from the Son who in eternity past knew only a harmonious perfect union with His Father was an agony that must be indescribable. What was it that kept Him from whispering that prayer for divine rescue during those awful hours?

The Word of God tells is that it was for the joy that was set before Him. The joy that was awaiting Him must have been so strong a motivation that it overwhelmed the need to be relieved of that pain and suffering he was going through. What would the cause of that joy be that Jesus anticipated so strongly that it made him willing to die? There were several things.

1.     In that well known passage in Philippians 2 on the humiliation of Christ we read: Therefore God also has highly exalted Him and given Him the name which is above every name, 10 that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of those in heaven, and of those on earth, and of those under the earth, 11 and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.[8]

Jesus knew that God would be glorified through his obedience and submission through all of this. Even as the Son of God, he had to “learn” obedience. That intrigued Pete. The writer of Hebrews says “Although he was a son, he learned obedience through what he suffered”.[9]  This  was theology of the highest order. He had learned early in his Christian life that Jesus was without sin. This revelation about Jesus learning obedience would mean that it was possible to learn obedience without necessarily being disobedient. Once again, this would be a topic of discussion he would have with his pastor.

Jesus had a singular goal when He came to this earth. He came “not to be served but to serve, and to give His life a ransom for many.”[10] This was Jesus’ mission, which He accomplished wonderfully. He lived a life of service and became an example for others like Pete to follow. In John 13, where Jesus demonstrated being a servant, it would have taken self discipline for Jesus to wrap a towel around his waist and then stoop to wash the feet of each of his disciples. Foot washing was a humble and even a demeaning task that was generally reserved for the house-servant or slave. Again and again, Jesus showed by his example that he would endure unpleasant tasks in order to achieve something wonderful in the end.

Pete concluded then that it was important to keep the long-term reward in mind, in order to overcome the short term resistance, pain or difficulty.

 

2.     There is a wonderful verse in the book of Hebrews that explains further what enabled Jesus to remain on the cross. It says there, “14 Inasmuch then as the children have partaken of flesh and blood, He Himself likewise shared in the same, that through death He might destroy him who had the power of death, that is, the devil, 15 and release those who through fear of death were all their lifetime subject to bondage. [11]

The goal of robbing Satan of the power of death, and thus freeing us from bondage to that same fear was a huge accomplishment and a great reward. “Robbing” might be the wrong word to describe this conquest. It implies that Jesus took what did not rightfully belong to him. Yhis of course was not true.  The power of life and death rightfully belong to Jesus. It was FOR US. He died in order to free us from bondage. This meant then that the joy that kept him on the cross was the prospect of our complete and utter freedom and redemption! The thought of bringing us to heaven to unite us with Himself and His and our Father was His joy and delight. It was difficult for Pete to sit still as he reflected on these precious thought.

Implementation

Pete was already starting to change some of his lifestyle habits. He was sleeping regular hours and would always start his day by reading a few verses in the Bible. Then he would pray about what he had just read, as well as dedicating his day to God.

How was he going to maintain consistency with these new found habits?

The writer of Hebrews says “For consider Him who endured such hostility from sinners against Himself, lest you become weary and discouraged in your souls[12]

Here is the help that Pete needed. In other words, think and meditate on the person of Christ. Let Jesus and his example be your joy. Think of what He had to endure. Think about the eternal destiny of the path that you are on. The thought of heaven’s reunion with our loved ones as well as meeting Jesus face to face will overcome the resistance you feel when the exercise of self-control is called for.

The self-control that the Holy Spirit brings to our inner man is therefore different from the self discipline that an athlete draws upon, even though Paul uses the analogy of the athlete extensively. It seemed to Pete then that the Holy Spirit takes the natural ability that we all have to control ourselves, and He amplifies it, sanctifies and redeems it for his purposes - a sort of reconfiguration of the natural ability. And do not overlook the fact that everything that is ours by way of natural ability is also from our Creator-God.

First of all, there is the motivation. It comes from the Holy Spirit, who brought us an entirely different world view. He teaches us to care about the Spiritual Life. He teaches us that there are moral values that we need to adopt and hang on to as precious to us because these are the values that Jesus Himself held. The purpose of the Christian life was to become like Christ, was it not?  Self-discipline is required to grow and maintain some of those values. Self-discipline is required to overcome the resistance of the old nature that Pete would feel.

Before he became a believer, it was not a big deal for him to steal the occasional item that didn’t belong to him.  What about falsifying data on an income tax return?  It is so easy to lie to the government. Yet now as a believer Pete has learned that theft and bearing false witness is a sin. It goes against the Spirit of Christ. It works against the very person that Christ wanted him to become. The Holy Spirit would bring those truths to his heart and he would  have the self-control to resist those temptations because he would be motivated to live for the Lord and not for himself. After all, that is what Pete declared symbolically by his baptism.

Secondly his self-control would be strengthened by the thought of his eternal destiny. Before becoming a follower of Christ he didn’t think much about the afterlife. In fact he avoided thinking about it. The materialist would not believe in a soul or spirit because the soul and spirit  are immaterial. Pete recognized that he was once a practical atheist. If that was the case (as most people think) then there is no future reward to gain or no punishment to avoid. When you die, your body lies in the ground and that’s all there is. Therefore as long as you don’t hurt anyone, you can basically do anything you want. You wouldn’t have to give an account for all the injustices that were committed furing your life time.

As a believer, Pete knew that there is more to life than that. It cannot be that the despots and villainous politicians will get away with the evil that they have committed. The Bible teaches us that those who are Christ-followers will not only have a wonderful reunion to look forward to; there will also be rewards, based on our works (1 Cor 3:5-20).  

The self-discipline then that comes from the Holy Spirit brings us motivation and orientation in the same way that a ship is powered by an engine (motivation) and is led by the North star (orientation or a compass). There is the unrelenting ‘push’ or encouragement of motivation and the inexorable ‘pull’ of our future life with our Creator.

Pete had come to realize it wasn’t just direct acts of disobedience that become weights (or disincentives). It was simply neglect. He had not been exercising self-discipline. In that sense even the experts (those who study the brain) say that the ability to control oneself can be strengthened (or weakened) by use or lack of use, just like the muscles in our body.

We can actually practice self-discipline and in doing so, we will develop that aspect of the fruit of the Spirit. Just like resistance training, self-discipline takes place when we practice doing what we normally do not want to do. When this realization dawned on Pete, his mind went to Romans 7.

In the last half of the chapter Paul is essentially telling us, “The struggle is real!” Pete did not understand everything that was written there. Here is what he read.

14 For we know that the law is spiritual, but I am of the flesh, sold under sin. 15 For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. 16 Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. 17 So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. 18 For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. [13]

Pete obviously recognized that he was not wired to do what God would have him do. Furthermore, he recognized that so many of his desires and actions were natural, i.e. fleshly and worldly. It’s almost as if he was instinctively programmed to think and do things that were harmful to his spiritual growth. The word states “. 15 For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate.[14]

Pete understood at least that there was an internal war that needed to be fought. How will he win this internal war? Paul admitted “18 For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but how to perform what is good I do not find. 19 For the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice.[15]

There is a major interpretive problem with this passage. Pete knew that commentators and theologians routinely struggle with this question, “Is Paul here describing a struggle that he had before he became a Christian or after he became a Christian?” Here was another question that he would bring to his pastor. This was going to be a tough one.

He took comfort in the answer that Paul gave to his own question. It’s almost as if he builds up towards a crescendo as he asks the agonizing question: “Who will deliver me from this body of death?”

The answer followed the question

“25 Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord!”[16]

There it is again. Jesus Christ, our Lord, Saviour and Redeemer is the answer. And with the writer of Hebrews telling us to “consider Jesus… ”, Pete was getting closer to understanding not only the theory of self-discipline, but actually carrying out what he has intended to do.

 

Intention versus Action

Pete knew that often in the past, he would state his intentions, if not to others, then to himself. After hearing a good sermon on a Sunday morning, he would feel the conviction of the Holy Spirit, convicting him to do correct something in his life. By the time he got home from church and after discussing the latest hocky game with some of his friends at the restaurant, his conviction had evaporated like raindrops on a hot sidewalk. By the time he got home and had his routine Sunday afternoon nap, all intentions were forgotten until the next Sunday.

Pete was determined that things would change. It had to! He had made himself accountable to his Pastor. He saw that one of the challenges he faced was the way he used his smart phone. Certainly it could be a blessing too. But he knew that the constant scrolling on social media was affecting his ability to focus. If he was going to learn and grow in the area of self-discipline, he would have to relearn the ability to focus on the matter at hand. He deleted some of his social media accounts. In fact he decided to get a minimalist phone so that he would not constantly be interrupted and diverted. He started reading anything he could on the topic of focus.

Secondly, he began to journal. He would write about his journey and document his struggles to find focus and discipline in his life.

The pursuit of self-discipline was now becoming the priority in his life. Pete felt as if this was an all-important matter. He was getting more consistent in some areas. Others began to notice some changes. He adopted the slogan - Consistency pays in compound interest. Yet there was more to learn.

Habits

Pete had read somewhere that it took several weeks of consistent action before that desired  activity becomes a habit. So he began setting goals for himself. Instead of saying to himself, “I want to exercise every day” he said, “I will spend 30 minutes 5 days a week to physical exercise.”

A Christian friend of his asked him, “Why are you focusing on the physical body? Shouldn’t you be giving all your attention to the spiritual side of things?”

Peter had to think about that for awhile. He discovered that some of the spiritual giants of the past whom we look up to regarded the health and fitness of our bodies as very important. As he began to work out, he noticed that the cloud that would often befuddle his brain was lifted. He experienced less and less lethargy. Another theologian that he read stated that a requirement for a healthy spiritual life is a good night’s sleep! He may have overstated the case, but still, Pete saw that there was a clear connection between fitness of the body and fitness of the soul and spirit.

Pete was well on his way. He understood now that neglect and sloth had defeated him for a few years. Now that his love for Christ and what He has done was rekindled, he was getting consistent in his study times.

One more thing that he did was to use visuals wherever his eyes landed the most. A towel was a symbol for servanthood. This would remind Him that Jesus came to serve us. A crown would remind Him of Jesus rewarding Him some day. A throne would remind him of the fact that even NOW, God regards the Christian as being seated with Jesus Christ in heavenly places. Pete would try to visualize the person that he hoped to become by God’s grace and that anticipation began to pay dividends in Pete’s life. Oh yes, and the marijuana habit? It dropped off like a leaf in the autumn as Pete occupied himself with Jesus, his wonderful Saviour and Lord.



[1] Matt 16:24

[2] The Holy Bible: English Standard Version (2 Pe 1:3). (2016). Crossway Bibles.

[3] The Holy Bible: English Standard Version (2 Pe 1:4–8). (2016). Crossway Bibles.

[4] The Holy Bible: English Standard Version (Ga 5:22–23). (2016). Crossway Bibles.

[5] The Holy Bible: English Standard Version (1 Co 9:24–27). (2016). Crossway Bibles.

[6] The Holy Bible: English Standard Version (1 Co 9:25). (2016). Crossway Bibles.

[7] The New King James Version (Heb 12:1–2). (1982). Thomas Nelson.

[8] The New King James Version (Php 2:9–11). (1982). Thomas Nelson.

[9] The Holy Bible: English Standard Version (Heb 5:8). (2016). Crossway Bibles.

[10] The New King James Version (Mt 20:28). (1982). Thomas Nelson.

[11] The New King James Version (Heb 2:14–15). (1982). Thomas Nelson.

[12] The New King James Version (Heb 12:3). (1982). Thomas Nelson.

[13] The Holy Bible: English Standard Version (Ro 7:14–20). (2016). Crossway Bibles.

[14] The New King James Version (Ro 7:15). (1982). Thomas Nelson.

[15] The New King James Version (Ro 7:18–19). (1982). Thomas Nelson.

[16] The Holy Bible: English Standard Version (Ro 7:24–25). (2016). Crossway Bibles.

Saturday, July 22, 2023

Deep Longing

I was reading in Genesis this evening and came across a verse that immediately brought a painful memory to heart and mind. My father was looking for a church that would welcome him. He had been excommunicated along with others who held to the same belief; i.e. that God would eventually reconcile every thing to Himself by redeeming everyone. I do not know everything that went on – this happened in the late 1950’s and early ‘60’s. I was just a child. But I always followed theological discussions at home and at church with great interest. How I remember the passion with which my father would talk of the Lord’s return at the supper table when we had family devotions.

Even as a ten year old child, to some degree I understood the issue of redemption; the necessity of the atonement and the need to be born again. I think my father understood the implications of the belief of universalism on my future life, and so he would tell us as children that we would have to decide for ourselves once we were mature enough to understand the issues. He had become a moderate universalist.

He had such a heart of compassion and could never reconcile the love of God with the existence of souls in an everlasting lake of fire. While I understand the motivation behind the doctrine, I do not agree with it but that is beside the point.

My father badly wanted a loving church he could call his family; his home. One Sunday he visited another of our denomination’s German churches. He approached the church and started climbing the stairs, and a group of men who recognized him called out and said “Herman, what are you doing here?” (They knew about him and his home church)

Without skipping a beat, he answered, “I am seeking my brothers”.

My father often spoke cryptically. These men did not recognize that he was quoting from Joseph’s response to a stranger who found him wandering the fields (Gen 37:16), looking for the brothers who would betray him and sell him as a slave.  I know little of what happened after that exchange except that the men thought he was kind of weird.

I do know that after a few years, those same churches received the others who had been excommunicated back into fellowship. My Father had moved out of the province in the meantime and to my knowledge was never able to make peace with the church that disfellowshipped him.

"I am seeking my brothers." I often think of that verse when I have a deep longing to connect more deeply with my brothers. Perhaps that longing is something I inherited from my father. Is there such a thing as a spiritual DNA? Deep connections do not come easily but at times when I let my feelings out of their compartment, I long deeply for that.


Saturday, September 24, 2022

 Dialogue With an Atheist Pt 4

The answer to prayer that I shared with my unbelieving friend was not really the issue. It was an incident in my life that I shared with him. He spurned it, as if I offered that story as slam dunk evidence for God’s existence. There is a difference between scientific certainty (the kind that enables me to safely assume that 2+2=4) and the things I believe. The word, ‘believe’ in itself, denies that kind of certainty. We don’t say “I believe 1 and 1 equals 2.”
I believe that was an answer to prayer. I do not hold it up as slam-dunk proof.

 A Dialogue With an Atheist (Pt 3)

Part 3
First, I must share the story of the lost keys so that you understand how humanly improbable this was. (Our folks at CGC might remember this. I shared it with them the next Sunday). As a Pastor of a downtown church in Toronto, I was given a set of keys along with a solemn warning. Those keys were expensive, and should I lose them, we might have to change locks on several doors, and then outfit all keyholders with a new set of keys, electronic fobs and all. One Friday night, after an evening of fellowship I realized once I arrived at home that I no longer had my church keys. I searched everywhere for them. I was hesitant to pray about this because it seemed too trivial an issue and besides, I don’t deserve an answer to prayer because my prayer life is so inadequate (Is it ever adequate?)
Nevertheless I pray. Sunday morning I arrive at church. Thankfully the music team has arrived first and the doors are open already. Our worship service begins at 9:30. At 10:40 or so, everyone spills out onto the sidewalk for a break. The sidewalk is full of people; tourists going by (we are in the heart of Chinatown) and worshippers mingling. I need to go from one building to another, so I manage to push through the crowd. In the thick of all that, I see a homeless looking old man shuffling through the mass, and as he passes me, I hear him mutter under his breath to no one in particular, “found some keys.” I didn’t pick up what he said until after I entered the building next door, and I pulled up short. Did he just say “found some keys?”
I rushed back outside, and he was still shuffling his way eastward on Dundas, past the thick of the crowd now. I ran to catch up to him and tapped him on the shoulder. “Excuse me. Did you say you found some keys?”
“Yes. Friday night.” Hope sprouted wings. “Where did you find them?”
“Over there”, he said pointing at the bus shelter in front of our church.
“Do you still have them? Can I see them?”
“Sure. But they are at my place.”
So he wasn’t homeless. “Where do you live?” I ask. “Just down this street”
“Would you please get them and bring them to me?” I couldn’t offer to go with him. Our next service was about to start. I was really hoping he would remember to come back.
Sure enough, a few minutes later, he came back and there were my keys.
A man not related to anyone in our church, shuffled by our church, walked through our sidewalk crowd, and would not know who to talk to among the 75-100 people on the sidewalk that day, not having the express purpose of returning the keys and not knowing that they were church keys. I, the loser of the keys just ‘happened’ to be on the sidewalk the exact moment he was walking by, and heard him muttering under his breath.
My friend of course wrote this off as a coincidence. The only smart aleck rejoinder I had in response was “Funny thing, the more I pray, the more coincidences I see.” To which of course, he rolls his eyes and cites a controlled study of an experiment that was done of a prayer team who prayed for a number of patients on a certain ward and did not pray for a different ward. Apparently it made no difference. Rates of improvement were the same. A nice but kinda silly ‘what aboutism’.
Part 4 coming soon…